art is work

since i graduated from college, i have spent very little time overall making art in long stretches. i forgot how hard it is. yes it is a joy, yes it is where life comes form for me, but it is work.

having spent so much time talking about this project, thinking through this project, putting paintbrush to paper (or shoes in this instance) is surprisingly hard for me. it is not for lack of a plan, lack of content, lack of inspiration. i feel full of all of these things. i think it is fear. fear of such public work. fear of the authority i will be given as an artist. fear of how people will listen when i give workshops on this. fear that i won't like my own work.

and yet, courage is not the absence of fear, but the decision that something is more important than fear.

this is more important than fear. art is more important than fear.